mrstuffanothapus

I'm looking for a new start in a new place and hope to meet some great new people... And with a little luck... Just ONE really great friend... Or better yet... The next love of my life... Yes! I'm single.. Widowed actually..! The most wonderful woman I've ever known with whom I spent 5 years becoming platonic friends... Then 10 years in the most committed. caring. and loving relationship I could have ever imagined... When we were together... I never wanted to so much as look at another woman... She was my heaven sent soulmate.. And knew she was by far the best woman I've ever known.... That was until just over 5 years ago. when she was diagnosed with a stage 4 inoperable brain tumor.. On July 3rd 2018 .. I thought.... I would trade places with her without batting an eyelash... And if I had to... I would do anything to protect her.... But for the next three weeks... I was completely helpless to do anything but hold her hand and watch live out her last three weeks in pain... she was only 48yo . I have Always been strong and nearly indestructible . Nothing ever scared me.. I've had more than few brushes with my own demise and still can't think of anything that I am afraid of .. I'm as masculine as any man . And have the heart and just like a Pit Bull.... I would rather be your best friend.... But screw me over.. And I will be you worst nightmare...
But when I was alone again three weeks later on July 28th 2018 . I found myself completely lost with almost no reason to get out of bed and when I did... I had no idea what I wanted to do or where I wanted to go.. I guess you can say that I just wished that I just wouldn't wake up the next day... Even though her last wish was that I move on with my life... I just couldn't go on without her for over three years... Then when I did try to get back into life.. The great SCAMDEMIC of 2020 was in full swing... Which finally gave me a choice... Continue to stay home alone in misery .. OR go out still alone... While trying to hide my misery...
Neither option amounted to anything... So.. Here I am 5 years after losing the most amazing women I've known... It took me over 30 years to find the one woman that according to my father didn't exist.. Or wasn't invented yet.. He said it so often that I started to believe him... But then one day.. about 10 years later... There she was.. At that time she was unavailable.. And I respected that for 5 years and we became platonic best friends .. Then without a word . She stopped by and said she broke up and moved out... I asked if she needed a place to stay .. And that was how we finally took our friendship to the next level. And just like that the woman I never thought I'd ever meet was standing next to me for the past five years.. and was now standing right in front of me... As it turns out.. Falling head over heals in love with your best friend of 5 years that just happens to be of the opposite sex. Is almost inevitable. .. ( If you're str8 at least ) .. She wanted me to move on and until now... I just couldn't bring myself to move on... However, Nothing is going to bring her back and I know she wouldn't want me giving up on life... It was my spontaneous, caring, fun loving, zest for life and can do anything personality that she found so attractive... She probably wouldn't have wanted to get to know me if I felt the way I do now when we met.. . And I know she didn't want me to feel the way I do now for as long as I have..
So, I'm trying to move on in a new JOB... In a new City.. Far away from anything from my past... She will always live on in my heart .. But at the same time...A piece of my heart died along with her.... I know that to some this might sound like a lot of baggage... But I assure you it isn't .. Before I met her .. My heart had been frozen solid for many years... She was the one that proved to me that I was capable of loving someone more than anything in the world.... in addition to and including myself.... She made be believe that I could love and trust someone .. Unconditionally... and let my guard down and let someone into my life for the first time in a VERY long time... She also opening my eyes to the fact that the person you've been looking for you're entire life .. Just might be standing right in front of you one day.... But if your eyes ( and heart ) aren't open,
You don't have much of a chance of knowing who she is or ever meeting her..
Even though a piece of my heart will always belong to her... and next to it is another piece that died along with her. She unfroze the majority of it and made me believe that I could love her .. And I could love someone else again..

I am a Single white male str8 switch in athletic shape.. Looking for friendship, fun, or A long term relationship..; Even though this probably isn't the place.. It's as good as any to look for a long term committed relationship with a good honest woman who is open ( at least to her partner ) about her sexuality.... Whether it be vanilla to kinky as hell... Ultimately, I am searching for my next one and only.... Someone honest with me and herself for a long term hopefully forever relationship... .
However, In the mean time.. I am open to anything from online or real time platonic friendship to one hot pleasurable night of mutual fun or a friend with benefits.... Hoping that one day I meet the next love of my life. to share the rest of my life with...
I hope she is out there and whether it be here or not.... I hope to bump into her some day soon..

I am honest and genuine in what I say ..If this sounds too good to be true . I can understand your feelings judging by the endless numbers of fake people here.. But if you message me I will happily reply and we can go from there and you can judge for yourself if you are interested in me or not.. I will promise that if you do take a chance and PM me and decide that I am not the man I say I am... I assure you that there will be no hard feelings and we will move on.. I am not a creeper. stalker or troll.... I have no interest in chasing someone who does not want to be pursued...

I do hope to hear from any woman who is interested in knowing more about how deep my personality goes... On the other hand I am a red blooded masculine professional man and wouldn't mind hearing from women just looking to get their freak on... Or just wants to chat and share stories Ideas or interests..
Let me know if you're out there and you see or read something on my page that sparks your interest...

WHAT IM NOT LOOKING FOR !!!!!!!
DO NOT WASTE YOUR TIME ASKING ME TO PAY/TRIBUTE/ SUBSCRIBE TO YOUR PORN SITE... NUDIE PICS.... WHATEVER!!!.... I've seen WAY more than my share of naked women in my life... AND I've actually had ACTUAL SEX with then TOO... And whether you believe it or not..... MOST ..went out of their way to have sex with me... Not the other way around... Whatever your album of nudie pics are.... I am willing to bet that I've seen and eaten better...
As a matter of fact... There isn't much .. IF Anything that you can show me ..FREE or otherwise ..That I haven't already seen and most likely did . IN REAL LIFE... Not in the LAND OF MAKE BELIEVE.....
Believe me or not... I've been with women ranging from 27 years younger than me.... To 14 years older than me... Ranging from 4'11" to 6'4" tall... And NONE were any more than Height / Weight proportionate.... I'm fine with a "FEW" extra pounds.... PROVIDED....
You look up the definition of a FEW .. and remember that .. A few means " A FEW MORE than you're IDEAL Weight!... Not a few more than the average overweight woman...